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[العين الدامعة]

وحدي أسير , يا حبيبة ..

صدّقيني , لا شيء يستحق هذا الكم من الدموعِ والألم ،
لو تأثرنا بكل قرارٍ / قول / فعل حولنا لما ثبتنا على شيء ,
لا أخفيكِ .. أنا أكثر من ينزعج / يتأثر بما حوله ,
لكنني تعلمت اليوم , واليوم فقط .. كيف أثبت وأتمسّك رغم كل شيء ..
لقد كان درسًا رائعًا حقًا , أنتظرُ تكراره ..

أقولها لكِ من كل قلبي , مع دعائي :
امضِ قُدمًا دون توقّف , فهناكَ من يحتاج مما أفاضَ الله عليكِ ,
معجبةٌ أنا كثيرًا بتفاعلك وهمتك - ما شاء لا قوة إلا بالله - ,
أسأل الله أن يزيدكِ من فضله وأن يتقبل منكِ بَذلكِ وحرصك ,
وأسأله تعالى أن يهوّن عليكِ ما وجدتي ويجعلَ دموعكِ بردًا لا ألمًا ..
آمين آمين ..

لكِ ودّي (f)


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[عبدالرحمـن]

i feel what u feel
when u did a lot of work and afterwards the owner came and
take a - من فوق لـ تحت -
look

but , take it easy
may i ask u a question ?
what did u gain from all this tears and that sadness ?
i will reply instead of u
nothing but حرقة الدم
and hypertesion

beleive me .. nothing deserve it ,
طالما ur effort is for Allah
don't allaow anything to stop u

and they - for sure - have a good reason to withdraw

may Allah bless u

.

[وحدي أسير]

الفاضل ملون: أنا آسفة

الفاضلة قافية الأثر: و أسعدك.. الله يقربك إليه..

الفاضلة العين الدامعة: بلى.. تستحق قدرتي على الإخلاص لله هذه الدموع و أكثر
و تستحق أمي مثلها و أكثر.. عفا الله عنكم.. لا أجد لغيرها مسلكًا..
جزاك الله خيرًا..

[وحدي أسير]

المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة عبدالرحمـن i feel what u feel when u did a lot of work and afterwards the owner came and take a - من فوق لـ تحت - look but , take it easy may i ask u a question ? what did u gain from all this tears and that sadness ? i will reply instead of u nothing but حرقة الدم and hypertesion beleive me .. nothing deserve it , طالما ur effort is for Allah don't allaow anything to stop u and they - for sure - have a good reason to withdraw may Allah bless u .

. . . . .


كتبتُ ردًا طويلا.. و آثرت حذفه..
أعتذر..
أشكرك جزيل الشكر على ما تفضلت به..
و أسأل الله أن يجعله في ميزان حسناتك و يرزقك الإخلاص في كل قول و عمل..

[وحدي أسير]

ربي اجعل ما كُتب هنا -لأي كان..
شاهدا لنا لا علينا..




سبحانك اللهم و بحمدك..
أشهد أن لا إله إلا انت..
أستغفرك و أتوب إليك..

[وحدي أسير]

المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة عبدالرحمـن i feel what u feel when u did a lot of work and afterwards the owner came and take a - من فوق لـ تحت - look but , take it easy may i ask u a question ? what did u gain from all this tears and that sadness ? i will reply instead of u nothing but حرقة الدم and hypertesion beleive me .. nothing deserve it , طالما ur effort is for Allah don't allaow anything to stop u and they - for sure - have a good reason to withdraw may Allah bless u .

..I decided not to come back here
..not to write anythin in ma3ali
..but that hidden section
..and in threads where I need to write something for the sake of spreading knowldge
..here, and only here
..but

..after I read your reply
..I couldn't stop thinking of what I really wanted to let out
..what I deleted
..and about what you said
..whether or not iit is really what I claim it is
..whether or not I was hurt because of


..you see
..when I do something for the sake of Allah
..I don't wait for anything from anyone
..not even a thank you
..I just wait to see the seeds of what I tried to plant
..only to know if Allah accepted my deed or not



..I don't care about them stepping out
..I do'nt care about them staying in the race
..I don't care about anything
..and I really don't want to care


..but you see
..after "announcing" that they were out
..replies followed that with poetry lines
..that makes anyone feel that
..staying in the race
..is nothing but a way to put someone down
..it makes you feel that
..the more you work for all this
..the worse youare

..and in an ""islamic" forum
..I cannot interpret "something bad" other than
..being something for the sake of Dunya
..or something that Allah doesn't approve

..ya3ni
..if it were to be said in a place
..where I know everyone doesn't care about Hereafter
..I would have said they can't see what we are doing
..and in fact, wha tthey said
..is only a push for me to do the best

..but when such thing comes out
..from THE MAIN forum in an "islamic" forum
..where EVERYTHING should be studied well before its done
..where pleasing Allah is the only and foremost goal
..I cannot understand anything but
..they mean to say me being a part of the race
..is nothing but a way to go after Dunya
..and a way to seek fame and people's attention

!!

..every reply after the other
..just keeps adding to the "fact" taht
..they are the best for stepping out
..for staying away from crowds
..for not approving all this mess
..as if I want to stay in all these crowds
..to get fame and be called the best and and and

?you see my point
..am not good at describing how I feel
..when I describe it to someone


..I don't know, doctor
..maybe I took it too far
..maybe I'm just being the sensitive me
..but I have no other way but to understand it the way I did


..I spent that whole night and the following day
..crying and crying
..I started remembering all the hours I spent
..and thinking of it being for the sake of Dunya
!Lord
..it was a nightmare
..I let go off a lot of things for the sake of Allah
..to have this done
..and it felt very good because it was for the sake of Allah
..I knew I didn't loose anything
..that Allah will give me better things
..but someone comes along
..and simply say
..nothing was for Allah
..everything was just a waste of time
..and a way to run after fame


..because of what happened
..I lost the desire to do anything online
..anything, not even joining clubs or emails
..I used to do that all for the sake of Allah
..but
..it seems I was faking all that
..lying to myself
..and everything was for the sake of Dunya
..without me knowing


..I even decided and swore
..I would never come back here.. never
..but we have a saying where I come from
كرمال عين تكرم مرج عيون
..and for the sake of a sister
..a very dear sister
..I'll need to pay elkaffara
..and decided to limit my activity to the hidden sec
..and where I promised to handle things


..it wasn't nice to do what they did
..and I don't mean by that the idea of stepping out
..if I want to think like they claim I am
..I would have thanked Allah they stepped out
!!it's one step nearer to fame



..I only wanted the first place for this forum
..so that eveyone would want to come here
..and learn
?why would I care for the first place
..and I tried very hard to not let aynone know I am in that team
?didn't I tell you I was just a fan
(:
sorry for lying ^



..it's okay
..I'll get over it one day
..I do'nt know when that will happen
..but I'll hope for it


..I know I'll miss writing here
..I'll miss a lot
..but am looking for another way to let out all that misery
..inshAllah will find one soon
..because something bad will happen if I don't write
..and I can't write on paper
..someone might "by mistake" read it
!just like they did before
..my email is full of emails
..I have 1600 unread fwds
..and emails I plan to reply back to, but always forget
!Very bad at communicating ^



..I talked a lot
..am sorry
..I just felt bad for not replying
..and couldn't take it off my mind


..thanks a lot for your reply
..your time
..and your encouraging words



..wishing you all the best and Ikhlass in your life and career

[وحدي أسير]

المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة وحدي أسير ربي اجعل ما كُتب هنا -لأي كان.. شاهدا لنا لا علينا.. سبحانك اللهم و بحمدك.. أشهد أن لا إله إلا انت.. أستغفرك و أتوب إليك..

^ هالمرة عن جد..

[إسلام]

[ثمة ثرثرة..!]

I just finished reading these 10 pages

and I couldn't help my tears from going through my cheeks

but the only thing that I can do is praying for you

and asking Allah to be with you and make your days full of happiness

sorry if you find any mistakes in spelling or in the structure- -

[عبدالرحمـن]

i got ur point my sister , i got it well
..
i know that u r in their team
so , ur trick did not act* well : )
..

I spent that whole night and the following day ..crying and crying

..tell u something
try to let those tears out at the last one third of the night
standing out , putting ur right hand on the left one
..reading the holy quraan
just try .. am still trying but
i failed successfully , but
i did not give up yet , and i won't in shaa Allah

..may Allah bless u

* هذا الفعل هو ما أسعفتني به انجليزيتي و لا أدري أيصلح أم لا

[وحدي أسير]

المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة ملوّن

(:
..I can't stop myself from smiling

..I didn't know you were aba-albaraa
..I wish WithinThe voice gets to come back too

..I miss those days

..wishing you all the best

المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة ثمة ثرثرة..! I just finished reading these 10 pages and I couldn't help my tears from going through my cheeks but the only thing that I can do is praying for you and asking Allah to be with you and make your days full of happiness sorry if you find any mistakes in spelling or in the structure- -

..would you believe me if I tell you
?this is the best thing anyone can ever do

..I am really grateful for your prayers
..I really am

..and no
..there were no mistakes in your reply
..in fact you seem to write very good English
..which makes me wonder why you're not around as often

(:


..may Allah reward you and bless you with happiness all your life

المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة عبدالرحمـن i got ur point my sister , i got it well .. i know that u r in their team so , ur trick did not act* well : ) .. ..tell u something try to let those tears out at the last one third of the night standing out , putting ur right hand on the left one ..reading the holy quraan just try .. am still trying but i failed successfully , but i did not give up yet , and i won't in shaa Allah ..may Allah bless u * هذا الفعل هو ما أسعفتني به انجليزيتي و لا أدري أيصلح أم لا

?it didn't
(:

..I knew it wouldn't
..but I had to try my best anyways
(:

..about the verb
..we usually say
.."s/he played a trick on me"
..or
.."her/his trick didn't work"


..and about the arabic words you had in the previous reply
..it looked better
(:
..seriously


..may Allah bless you too

[Abdulrazaq]

بطلب من الكاتبة !